I am writing this post for myself. When there are instances of feeling in low motivation, I hope I will read this post again and again to cheer myself up.

I am just so grateful that I got to know of this volunteer opportunity where I can spent time with the disadvantaged kids. It won't start anytime soon but I am (slightly) excited to see and have a conversation with them. 

You know sometimes I feel it would be nice to mentor them as well. I love mentoring but I need to refresh through my notes about mentoring. Haha!
I am not really that good either but good enough to mentor someone I guess. 

Well, I am not really sure what to do with my life. I wonder if I can hold a full time soon or wonder if I will be able to work in the mental health sector. I am not sure. I wonder where I am destined to work at. 

But it's okay not to know what lies ahead. We can always let Allah to surprise us with His plans. He knows what's best for us. The time I have now is filled with blessings that Allah has given me. So, it is best I be productive with my time and filled up my time with things that I love to do so that my mind is always stimulated and used for the benefit. 

I have stopped Netflix, youtube to cut my spending time on watching videos and movies. I prefer to send time focusing on my fitness, prepping healthy meals (when I got the budget), volunteering, doing internship, managing my website, listening and dancing to music, photography (if I have the chance to) and reading lots of poetry and spiritual books. I love reading a lot. Hahahah!!! 

The motivation comes when I look forward to the days ahead and knowing that Allah wants me to be patient of not knowing what lies ahead. Having patience when things are going wrong with my life. Islam is not a religion of weakness. Allah wants us to take actions in the midst of things not working out and this is mentioned in the AAplus.co in the topic of " Active Patience". 

For instance, I am not married yet. I haven't found someone yet who is right for me. Out of curiosity, I read up on parenting in the Islamic and the Western context. And also to learn preparing healthy meals like I learn how to perfect the avocado drink so that it taste good to me and I learn how to prepare Acai. And I am already reading and understanding food recipes so that when I have money, I can start to prepare them. And I also make the effort to do household chores as simple as sweeping, mopping and cleaning the toilet. This will be an amazing effort on my part so that I am ready for the future if it is meant to be. Active patience by doing the action in the path of showing patience to Allah. I agree with Sofina and Aida Azlin's discussion on having active patience because Islam is a religion of strength and having faith that things will work out in the most beautiful way. It will always be the best for me InsyaAllah. The conviction that Allah will show us the way and guide us.     

Alhamdullilah having a conversation with Allah through my prayers during the period of confusion and frantic panic, leads to me a series of events that help me to attain a level of yakin. Allah is in control of our life and we are not in control of our destiny. I will be conflicted if I try to hard to reclaim control.

Mentioned by Aida Azlin, Allah is perfect and we are messy, full of flaws and haphazard.

                                 patience + actions + conviction = success  

(Mentioned by Safiyah Moulana)

Patience= the ability to trust Allah
Actions= in making the effort to achieve the end result that you desire
Conviction=Allah is in complete control and Allah will bring forth what is best for you. Allah loves you. 

InsyaAllah, you will be able to attain success. 

Time for me to go now. Time to do some fitness!