Alhamdullilah! All my life I have been taught that I need a damn job to earn money in this temporal world. Despite my 10th year of mental health condition, I do feel the pressure to have a job to earn an income. When I was interviewed by local newspapers, I feel pressured to disclose that I am finding a job.

God just do not want me to earn an income at this moment. I have tried every opportunity. The least is a short-term internship. Now, I am not allowed to put in the effort to earn money.
I already have a job. I am a spiritual person. I only realised it at the end of the year 2023. 

I am a friend of Allah (Wali Sufi Saint). My rewards are in the Hereafter. Allah has given me visions such as riding on a Buraq, a beautiful glass palace. I will have servants in Jannatul Firdaus who are waiting to serve me with loyalty and sincerity. I have accepted Prophet s.a.w marriage proposal during Ramadhan. I had a crush on him for a long time. I have a vision that I will be one of the most beautiful inhabitants of Jannah. I am an elite from the elites. My eyes will be made of marjan. I will have beautiful blonde hair. I will have beautiful emerald green clothing and also a long stick.

As a spiritual person, Allah has gifted me with three kasyafs related to the Heart, Intellect and the Mouth. These are my karamah. I am supersmart as I have up to 13 identity goals in my belt. This reflects deeply of my ability to bring out the best in me without much resources. 

Allah has created an attachment between me and a tall umbrella. This means I have a new urge to bring a tall umbrella wherever I go. 
For the past few months, I have changed umbrellas and from May, Allah allows me to have a tall wooden black umbrella. It is a dream come true. I also want this similar umbrella that costs $400 from Londen undercover. This brand allows for an engravement. This tall umbrella is my travelling companion through sickness and in health. It has many functions and is an amazing grounding tool when I feel deep pain and suffering. 

I have a list of work to do that Allah instructs. 
A lot is pending work. So, you see, I do have a job for this temporal work and in the Hereafter. Gaji bayar kat akhirat! I have lost the desire to work for money because I have reached the level of annihilation. I am leading a zuhud life. Yes, if Allah allows me to earn money, I will sure earn but for now, I want to focus on my spiritual work. And for now, I want to be in seclusion, be in frequent remembrance of Allah s.w.t , to be in silent silence. I want to stop over-explaining myself. I have been through so much in life since I was a child. I have been living in fear and I thought my whole life is a failure. 

Please leave me alone and stop asking why I am not employed and stop reminding me that I am living off my parents' money because my family is the main contributor of my mental health condition, Schizoaffective disorder. 

I have only one friend: Allah s.w.t.
Because no one is willing to marry me in this temporal world, then I am looking forward to be married to the best of humankind which is Rasullulah s.a.w. If you have a problem with this, then look into your shortcomings and get up for Tahajud! 

I am warning each and every one of you to stop denying my beliefs, opinions, what I know and my life experiences. This is gaslighting in my dictionary. Just shut up and do your own business! 

I have nothing in this world. I have no more love for this world. I just want to get out of this world and meet my beloved creator and my future husband. 

Only Allah fully understands my plights and Allah is the only One who rescues me in every hardships. Allah makes me feel seen, heard,
validated, loved and appreciated. 

I do not need a prince to rescue me! I am not a Cinderella! 

Just because I do not have an actual career and a financial stability, it does not give you the permission to call me sensitive, to invalidate my feelings and experiences and to intimidate me and make me feel like shit! I am so done feeling like shit okay! Please work on yourself and work your relationship with Allah.

If you cannot even wake up for tahajud not even once in your lifetime, this is something to be worried about. I can provide a free and sincere consultation to help you. 
Do email me at afiqahbiz1992@gmail.com.

My occupation: Wali Pemimpin
My direct boss : Allah s.w.t 
Salary: Rewards in the akhirat
Service: Any problem except technical, medical and mechanical problem
Payment: Free of charge because I just want to please Allah s.w.t

I am extremely patient with the rewards in the akhirah.
This is called " Delay Gratification ".