In recent months, I have always been comparing myself to other people who seem to be more successful than me. I still do feel sad and upset. And I learnt that we do not need to compare our chapter one to other people's chapter 10 as we do not know the struggles that the other person has to go through to achieve their intended outcome. And I am struggling with my self-esteem as I am insecure about my weight and my looks. Sometimes, I wonder when I can put on my brakes so that I can manage my self esteem better and also manage my tendency to compare my life to other people's life.  

And Allah provide me with His solution for me through his beauty.
Just now in the late morning, I travelled to Kent Ridge Park after the horrific struggle of being lost in the concrete jungle. I managed to find the park and I saw a beautiful imperfect mess of space that I love to use for my photoshoots. And now I think back why did I see such a mess and imperfect space as something beautiful for my photoshoot? Why I did not see a space which is well managed and perfect, to not be an ideal for photoshoot?

I am reflecting now and it seems that there is beauty in imperfection. As I travelled from Kent Ridge park to Hort park which is really a huge distance, I saw beautiful trees and leaves. I am a nature lover so that nature really fills my heart with happiness. Every leaf is imperfect with holes and shattered edges. And the leaf is still beautiful in my eyes and in His eyes. 
So I am always perfectly imperfect in Allah's eyes and this matters the most right?
And every tree has their own life stages. And they struggles to grow their own leaves and trunks. For every life stages, there are different struggles, so different expected outcomes. So it is pointless when I am comparing my life at this stage now to someone with at another life stage. 

The gardens prepared for the visitors are so amazingly beautiful that I promise myself to go there once again soon. I am looking forward for a hiking trip with my close friend from Labrador MRT to the forest walk (Telok Blangah Hill) towards Mount Faber and towards Merang Trail. And I am sure there are life lessons to be learnt from this long adventure. <3