I kept looking back at the past. When I was in primary, secondary school, polytechnic and university. The best phase is Polytechnic because I grew up well despite my character defects. I was more outspoken and brave to step up to the challenge. I was indeed flourishing and things went by as expected. There were some things that happened. There were not so good memories. I was a publication officer, doing well in publishing the newsletters. I always coped so well with my studies. I was so brilliant at that point of time. I forgive myself of my mistakes that I did in the past. I was so emotionally immature back then. I know it is tough to forget the rough times you had but you need to learn how to forget by getting busy. 
For my university days, I did not enjoy well at that period. I had lots of negative thoughts and had no mood to live. My ability to study well is commendable.  This is brilliant. I regretted not joining the Muslim expedition due to my overthinking. 
I was always so quiet in primary and secondary school, my teacher used to comment in my report book that I am quiet for my own good. 
Now, I am still quiet and still am . I hope that I find myself soon. I feel very lost and unmotivated. The only thing I enjoy doing is to do my 5D Diamond painting. I am losing myself daily. Not sure what to do as a job. I have lots of regrets in the past and in the present moment, I am not appreciating it. I wish I can be a bird in the sky that can fly freely in the air. I wish to have that too. I don't think anybody would be reading this post so I get more personal with my thoughts. 
To be honest, I prefer to write my thoughts here than on paper because it is more convenient to type.