Covid phase 2 is reinstated from 16 May 2021. We are only allowed to walk in groups from 8 people to 2 people. All dinings are closed. And my piano booking location is allowed for an hour per booking day. The borders in the world are closed and most of the countries are in lockdown. It seems that the virus strain has mutated into a more robust and lethal strain and is shocking the world.


Meanwhile, my mental health is under control. With medications, my mood fluctuations are more or less stable and I am very careful not to reach home too late so that I can have enough sleep. I also put in more effort to eat healthy meals and also to exercise up from 30 mins to 1 hour per day at least three times per week. I want to cultivate a healthy human brain for myself so that I can improve my mental well-being. 

It has been a good rollercoaster ride from my childhood till now. I am happy for my friends who are working full time and already settled down to have a family of their own. I am happy that they are leading a good life. 

For me, I do not see myself having a partner anytime soon because I am not ready to settle down and it seems no one has any interest to get to know me more. It suffices I am good friends with everyone to save the hassle and trouble. 
 
I just want to have a full-time job and earn a reasonable amount of income so that I have enough to buy healthy food for myself, to pay for transport and my IT software, and also to save for travels in the future.  Right now, I am focusing on my mental health, so I am not ready to apply for full-time jobs outside of the mental health sector. Considering that my resume is not solid and not substantive for me to apply for a management trainee position, I feel it is better for me to work in the mental health sector in the long term to gain experience and we will see how it goes from there.  

My mental health is better now and I am more in control of my emotions.

I just hope that my existence does not bother other people too much and does not hurt other people too much. 

I just want to lead a simple, meaningful, and purposeful life. It has always been my dream to travel to underdeveloped countries to discover and explore the harshness of reality on the other side. 

I just do not want to live my life with any more regrets because for most of my life, I have struggled with mental health challenges. In anything that I do, I want to do things that excite my heart and my gut.